Joyful Bits

My Life As An Older Mama

Yep, this is where I am right now in my life making airplane sounds with my five-year-old daughter Moriah. But, I will not complain because girls rule the world and we can definitely fly a plane. Having a baby at forty surely has changed my life. Moriah only wants to play with cars, trucks, planes, and anything that makes a lot of moving noise. 
Today, I can finally admit to myself I am an older mama, and this is my life. Last, week Moriah had a chance to see the Disney movie Planes. Every single moment of that day, she wanted to see it again and again and again. So, her dad decided to get tickets for her to go see real planes. To my surprise, it involved the whole family. We all went with joy and happy hearts. The very day we went, I started to tear up because I felt an emotion that I missed with my older girls. 

It hit me harder than a ton of bricks. I allowed time to pass me by, and now I am much older.
We spent two hours watching and listening to  Moriah try her best to explain the meaning of planes. 
You can clearly see Chloe and Mori understands. Moving forward, Moriah is five, which makes her the youngest amongst her sisters that range in ages 15 to 26. OMG what was I

At this point in my life, I am not sure how and why I have a 5-year-old tot considering I was almost done with having small babies in the house. Besides most of my younger years, I quoted a poem that said years ago.  That read, I never want any more kids, and I can't wait to get over the hill at my age so I can have some fun. 
Yes, my plans were outright crazy. Until I met my husband ( Rico), who had no children. And I will go into that in another post. What I can share now is Moriah has given me a new and different kind of joy. I can not tell if this happened because I am older or wiser. All I know is I am doing things as an older mom that I didn't have time to do as a younger mom.
Back in the day when I was an unmarried single mom. (Pause) Let me just say there is absolutely nothing wrong with being unmarried or a single mom. As women, we make it happen for our families no matter what situation we are in. But, back in my day, I was young with three small children, and all I did was work or try to attend school. So, I missed out on a lot of 'necessary and critical things they needed from me. I can't bring that time back, but as I get older, I have been working on spending all my extra time with them. My life is aging fast, and to be honest when I was single. I told my three oldest girls when they get grown, I was moving to Paris.

 My kids make fun of my poem and my Paris trip almost every day. In reality, it is funny to me also. But, boy, oh boy, look at how times have changed, yet I love every minute my children get to spend with me. Moriah has taught me how to love in a new mommy way. She rules the entire house. I find that I have so much love as an older mom. Don't get me wrong I love all my children. My older years have slowed me down so I can embrace my love for each one of my kids.
This is hard to admit, but I am still learning about life even though I have lived four decades on this earth. My time is valuable now, and I want to spend every minute happy and enjoying life by any means necessary. 
Trust me when I say it is just fine being an older mama. I've earned how to get down on Moriah's level and crawl under bridges, splash in the water and even encourage her to fly a plane. At this point in my life, I am ok with looking like a one-eyed crazy lady.

I did not get to spend that much time with my oldest children, mainly because I worked a lot, and I mean a lot. I feel as though God has restored some time back to our family and me so we can enjoy each other through the laughter, joy, and growth of Moriah.

     Her dad, Rico, was super excited to share old war stories his dad shared with him. It was a joy to watch the excitement in her eyes. It was more joy I get to experience this time with her also. Don't understand me wrong going to a museum doesn't mean better time spent with a child. I believe anytime spent with a child is a good time, at home, outside, or even a quick phone call from work. Going places or doing things don't always equal time. Sometimes a child just needs to know they are worth our time.

I guess it is true the older I become, the more I realize it's the little things in life that will last forever. I can not go back and grab time, but I can surely start embracing and enjoying my life now as an older mama. To be honest, I am so happy for this moment in time with each of my girls.
At the end of the day, Moriah was over her dad's shoulder fast asleep as we walked out of the museum. Later that night, she came into our room to say thanks, mom, and dad. I really love those planes.
Boom! It was at that moment I felt the love when she said she loved the planes. 
I felt like a proud mom with a brave little girl who loves planes, and I had time to do it.
This post may seem lame, but if you think about it for a moment. It took me a long to start enjoying my (Life's Time) 
Have a great week, guys!

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Are you an older mama? How has your life changed?

Until Next Time See Ya In A Bit!

xo Tangie