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Midlife Notes: Why I Choose To Enjoy Life!

Enjoying life is not a one size fits all solution to ending the world of sadness. What I am saying is I spent way to much time dealing with the grief of tomorrow instead of living for today. I robbed myself and my children.  I just want to breathe and enjoy the freedom to be happy.   As I have gotten older the things in my life that used to make me sad, have placed them in my don't care stack.
Midlife Notes
I can give 10,000 reasons why I choose to enjoy life, but I will stick to a few. There are no easy ways or popular hashtags to teach anyone how to live a good and happy life. I have learned you just have to grab life by the horns and just live. I was in tears when I wrote this post, and I didn't want to post it. When I think about my life and where I am now, why did it take me so long to exhale and not wait for my life to happen?



Enjoying life is not a one size fits all solution to ending the world of sadness. What I am saying is I spent way to much time dealing with the grief of tomorrow instead of living for today. I robbed myself and my children.
I just want to breathe and enjoy the freedom to be happy. 
As I have gotten older the things in my life that used to make me sad, have placed them in my don't care stack.

It took years for me to find myself and I owe it to God and my girls. The older my girls became, the more I saw them striving for their own personal happiness. They are determined not to allow any generational curse to stop them from enjoying their young moments in life. My oldest daughter Carey started keeping a happy diary, in which she journals everything that brings her joy. A year ago I started keeping my own personal journal, and it was life-changing.
  My journal book is unique because I do not write down my past hurts I only focus on what makes me happy and what I want to accomplish in my life. 



I am not waiting to exhale anymore, the wait is over, and I can't tell you when it hit me but, I decided one day to take control of my life, my happiness and joy.
I realized working hard all the time was aging me faster than having two full days off to re-cooperate. I do not take it lightly that people have to work, but I do take my well-being just as seriously as going to work every day.
I have removed things that don't make me feel happy even some social media. That is another story in itself. Some social media are not set up for positive and pleasant stuff. 
Since I've started laughing more and not taking life so seriously all the time, I have more energy to crawl around and hang around with my little ones and my adult kids. I can't get time back, but I can start enjoying my time. I encourage myself every day, no for real I do. Self -value comes from within. First, I have to want a good life for myself and for those that are around me. 
 I can look at my life now and laugh with joy, I am old, not dead. So, why not start enjoying the simple things first. My two most aged girls are so full of joy that has rubbed off on me. Besides, I think they like making a fool out of me and laughing at my jokes. My girls challenge me to everything, and I am no sucker, I fall for it every time.
My daughter Mori challenged me to a sliding challenge at the park, and you know I took it. 
Now, I haven't been on a slide in over 20 years, but I took the challenge. As you can see, I did get stuck on the slide. 
It was downright shameful and funny. It was embarrassing on all levels.  
I choose to enjoy life because I may be old but it's not too late to start my life over. I want to enjoy life because the world needs me just like I need the world. 
I choose to enjoy life because I have value. I prefer to enjoy life because I am worthy to be here. I prefer to enjoy life because I want to live. I choose to enjoy life because I want to see my kids grow into their full potential in life. I prefer to enjoy life because it is my right to do so. I choose to enjoy life because being sad is draining on the soul. 
I choose to enjoy life because my life depends on it. This list can go on and on.
 Did you notice I never said I choose to be happy so others can be happy? The reason is that if I am not happy and enjoying life, I can not make someone around me happy. I am not a psychiatrist, but I know when I would mope around acting sluggish, I didn't want to be around no one. And, God forbid if that person was happy I almost wanted to choke them. (lol:) those days are gone because I took action to take control before it was too late.

It took some time, but I started putting me first. No for real and this is what I did and still do. I start my mornings early and all by myself. I have shared this before. I take care of me first and then my family, my job, friends and any extra things that may come up in my life.




To be honest, my back and butt were aching from all that jumping around and climbing walls with my girls. But, for the memories, it was so worth it. Besides, I will never admit it to them, I just may be too old for all of this madness. 
No matter how my back feels, it feels even better going home with the championship award because I beat the shirts off my girls by winning all the games today.



I am taking life by the horns now, so peace out to any negative vibes that want to come my way. I am not sure what tomorrow will hold, but I am sure I will enjoy every second of today:)

I am not a Dr., and every situation is different, but I hope you can find some type of joy in today's post.

What is life if you are not enjoying it?
How are you enjoying your life "TODAY"?

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